Y must people always be so kpo leh?

my kpo aunties and uncles kept asking me this very irritating question... eh wheres ur bf? when u getting married? For the 1oooth time i do not have a bf, i do not intend to get married, i hate kids they are so irritating that i just want to kick them in the face!!! %$&%$^*&%* Being single is not a crime, being happily single doesn't even come close to being a crime y must people always ask me as thou confirm n chop chop i sure become lao chu nu leh? I'm enjoying life now y must people always come tell me how happy they are in their relationship leh? Its none of my probs wat tell me for wat? best part is i'm not even close to u! idiot! Grrrrrrr....

Anyway its my 23rd birthday today!!!! heheheheehe thanks for all the cards i love them!!! :) lalalalala the muffin now is feeling happy! its my day!

oh ya was reading sher's blog so here goes my 7s

7 things that scares me
my flatmates
crows
my kpo relatives
men
spiders
medicine
tutors

7 things that i like most
family
muffins
music
sims game
sleeping
nothing to do
shopping

7 important things in my rm
TOILET!
laptop
mobile phone
potato chips
instant noodles
nail polish
face and eye cream

7 random facts about me
i growl
i can sleep up to 22 hours per day
i can't live without soup
i can't live without my snoopy
i can't live without make up
i love talking to my family
i hate my tutors!

7 things i want to do before i die
of cos most importantly HUAT ARH!!!
buy a nice car
find a nice bf
write a cookery soup book
eat all the mussels in freo
master the art of putting fake eyelashes
travel ard the world

7 things i can do
drink whole pot of soup
crack lame jokes
listen to others problems
shop
go clubbing for 4 nights without complaining
cast a spell
pluck my own eyebrows

7 things i can't do
scream at someone right in their face
punch my bro
put my teddy bear on my head and walk in a straight line
eat rotten capsicums
do my assignment in advance
wake up early in the morning
eat 3 muffins at one go

7 things i say the most
huat arh!
i love muffin!
isit?
go eat shit n die
idiot
true true
muhaahahahaaa

7 people that will have to do this
Penny zhang
lynn
jia en
xian xian
melvin
kloie
lydia

I'm a happy bimbo....

For the past few weeks i've been grumbling how life has been so darn unfair to me but for the past few day i've been happily stuffing myself with hilton's mooncakes, kuay chap, hor fun, jap food plus crystal jade shanghai something at taka you r right i made bimbotic mistake again....
I was the only one with slippers... my family all dress nicely in shoes, heels cos i thought like go crystal jade only mah wats the big deal they r not going to throw me out if i wear slippers right then the lady at the counter looked at me frm top to toe then as if she was trying to say oei ah lian u come here joke isit wear slippers... heh heh but nvm lah anyway the food is yummy!!!

oh ya did i tell u guys the muffin made a fool out of herself at the airport? the plane landed in between t1 and t2 n i forgot that sq bag collection is always at t2 so blur blur i walk to t1 then the ah pek told me eh girl u forgot isit sq always at t2 he and his gang laugh until like siao.... that explains y i couldn't find my bag....... then walk all the way back to the other end to collect my bag my dad n mom laughed only miss muffin will do this kind of blur blur thing.....hehehehee ai ya who cares i'm hm liao mah anyway...

You're truly tired of accepting others' lame excuses and listening politely while they natter on about themselves. Finally, you've realized that your time is far too valuable to spend making nice, even if it means you need to be alone for a while.
--libra 20 September 2005

So true man.. I have no time to be nice and i do not see the need of being nice anymore
yes... i'm a mean cow...

X:hello
me:heyy
long slience
me:wats up u didn't drop by just to say hello right?
long slience
X:eh ya erm was thinking of asking u out on a date tonight b4 u go back sg mah...
me: not in the mood
dead slience.....

I do admit i'm a mean cow... but hey think abt this if you have kena as much shit as i kena in ur 22 plus years of life u will become a mean cow like me. Lynn said that i've become a mean cow yes i am so? I had enough of the rubbish people given me, i'm ready to chew someone's neck off if he/she offends me in the slightest way. Don't know why i've become like that snaps easily perhaps i'm tired.. really tired. Thank god i'm going hm tomorrow i miss hm so much i get depress when i'm in perth i really really hate my life now, y so unfair put me through so much shit? all i wanted is happiness is it really that hard to attain? I know most of you probably thinks that i'm not make any sense now which is true also, i'm just so angry with my life i can't wait for the day when i kick the bucket. Just let me go, god i'm suffering i really am. i'm just not the happy me anymore.

Lantern festival



















me n wrissy acting act haahaaa













Yesterday was moon cake festival, me wrissy n penny got together for dinner then after that decided to take a walk ard uni lighting out lanterns! Hehehe so fun although probably 90% of the people who saw us walking ard with the lanterns thought we were nutz but nvm as long as we are happy who cares! :)

some idiots are really time wasting fools...

If in the first place u r not a real brag queen y waste my time? This so called brag queen wannabe is really a time wasting blah. After countless attempts to meet up with him today we finally did and when he showed me the video of him at 9:10pm then i realised that he is only a brag queen wannabe, he only performs on friends bdae and parties. Not like the ones we see at boom boom boom... pig.. I wasted my entire day there listening to him brag then to realise that he is only a wannabe....Pls lar i want the real thing not a bragging pig...

current mood: foul ready to strike...

evening view at freo










food yummm....


My new headband from penny!









Little creatures

Was helping penny with an interview today at freo and decided to head down to little creatures for something good. It ends up the meal was REALLY good and we are so full now that i think i'm going to fall asleep anytime. ANYTIME....

Crying out love in the center of the world...

'When you die, does love die, too?'

That's the question at the very heart of Crying Out Love, in the Center of the World. Based on the best-selling romance by Kyoichi Katayama, the film stars Takao Osawa as Sakutaro Matsumoto, a brooding thirtysomething male engaged to the beautiful Ritsuko Fujimura. But the seeming normalcy of this happy couple's life is interrupted by an incident straight out of Haruki Murakami's best work. While packing up boxes for a move, Sakutaro's fiancée discovers a cassette tape. After searching the local stores for a Walkman capable of playing the now obsolete technology, she finally listens to the cassette and hears a young girl's voice. Moved to tears by the tape's content, Ritsuko promptly walks out of Sakutaro's life, leaving him with only a cryptic note: "I'm going away for awhile. Don't worry about me."

Confused and unsure of himself, Sakutaro heads to a bar to think things over. By pure chance, he receives an important clue to Ritsuko's whereabouts. While watching a live television report at the Takamatsu Airport during an impending typhoon, he sees his fiancée hobbling around in the background. The location sparks Sakutaro's memory banks, plunging the man's thoughts backwards in time, some seventeen years ago. His current situation, it seems, has origins in the past. The film then shifts perspective to 1986 with young "Saku" attending the funeral of his principal. During the ceremony, he becomes intrigued with the student chosen to give the eulogy: Aki Hirose, an intelligent "girl next door" type with a radiant smile and personality to match. Thanks to a seemingly chance encounter, Aki hitches a ride on Saku's motor scooter, and immediately, a relationship between the two soon blossoms. Not long after, the new couple decides to enter a late night radio contest to see who will be the first to hear their dedication played on the air. The prize? One brand new Sony Walkman offered by the radio station. The friendly contest soon turns sour when Saku's winning entry unintentionally offends Aki. Too upset to tell him why face-to-face, she explains her feelings via a cassette recording which she promptly hands over to an apologetic Saku. The two eventually decide to exchange tapes back and forth, telling each other stories, asking each other questions, and generally getting to know each other better in the face of their somewhat restrictive teenage circumstances.

The narrative intercuts between the past and the present as we then follow the elder Sakutaro returning to his hometown, visiting old haunts, and eventually finding the cassettes Aki left for him. But it seems that Sakutaro isn't the only one who has returned. Ritsuko, too, wanders the same areas as her fiancé.

During their adventures, young Saku and Aki encounter Uncle Shige, a relative of Saku's who runs the local photo studio. Through a series of events, they learn the story of Shige's long lost love, a woman he planned to marry, but didn't thanks the onset of war. But even after she married someone else, Uncle Shige admits that he's loved her from afar for all these years and continues to love her even in death. Aki is sick. Real sick.

In an attempt to brighten her spirits, Saku promises to take Aki to Uluru, Australia, which she calls the "center of the world," a sacred place she's seen only in photographs. But as she grows sicker, will they be able to make it? And in the present day, will Sakutaro be able to reunite with his fiancée?

The part where Saku turned up at the hospital with 'ai qing zheng shu' made me cried like a baby. Aki is dying yet Saku is willing to marry her.
Think about this question: when you die, does love die too?

when people refuse to contribute this is what happens....

Today, presentation went alright for me but as for the other 2 group members its just plain shit. 2nd person got stop cos her stuff were irrlevent, the third had no chance to talk at all. Then one of my other friend told me that this girl did not do her part at all always depending on others. No wonder mick stopped her half way and gave a lame excuse of oh theres no time left. Lesson learned today, must do ur work!, must meet up!, don't be lazy!, don't keep telling me you don't know n don't tell me u r busy! Busy is a lame excuse i'm also taking 3 units so whats the big deal? Don't tell me u don't know anything thats a even lamer excuse if you don't understand read the fucking reader many times if you have to! When i chase you for work give it to me! After a few days of chasing one gave me a single page of slide the other till the day itself NONE! we are doing presentation here i'm not your bloody nanny! I have my own life too i have no time to constantly chase after you!

Misunderstanding, estrangement, jealousy, hostility-all these things are unhealthy, but they can only improve ur immunity and broaden ur mind.

I had like the worse things thrown at me, insults, people laughing at me all these bad stuff just improves my immunity and broaden my mind. Cos now peoples comments don't really matter anymore, peoples insults they don't really sound harsh to me anymore, I can't stop them from saying nasty things about me but I can stop listening to them. After reading mattie's story made me realise that in this world theres no time to hate, no time to be angry because life is too short to think abt matters like that. http://www.mattieonline.com/ I'll stop wasting my time on those who are not worth it. Life is short, for some each day is a bonus to others its just another day...


i received this email frm hi5
I registered for something that i didn't even know exist.....
'Hi Eyvon,Happy Early Birthday from Hi5! Fill in or update your wishlist and tell your hi5 friends what you would like for your birthday. Thank you and see you soon,the hi5 team'
eh?!? whats hi5 and tell people my wishlist for wat? its like asking a pig to climb a freakin tree! haahaahaaaa!

Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!

Y must freaking morons always tua me? One thing i HATE about group presentation is that people don't turn up for meetings or they for some reason strangly disappeared. YES Michelle n gang, i am talking abt u! We are suppose to do this fucking presentation about Gender crap she mysteriously disappeared. I really hate morons like you, MIA freaks. Otherwise, another type of idiots, people who doesn't do their work, who are just so plain lazy freaks that i have to constantly chase them for their works! I REALLY REALLY HATE GROUP PRESENTATIONS!

Moon cake festival, the moon cake princess

For some reason I really like moon cake festival, maybe because always a few days after that me and my grandma will celebrate our birthdays together but now grandmas gone somehow things just feels like u know, weird. When i was abt 5 yrs old i used to race my bro up to the park behind our old house to take part in the moon cake festival contest or rather erm our mission to burn down the park.... then my childhood friend asked me to take part in this singing contest which i shameless did, but i won the first prize! Mommy and daddy was so proud of me that daddy gave me a nice looking lantern which he made it himself. After our parents left me and my bro alone to take a walk with their friends in the park, our mission to burn down the place begins, together wit christine, wen long and leng we proceeded to a corner where we begin lighting matches of cos being 5 i wasn't allowed to take part but to watch... then the fire started the boys began throwing in matches, branches, paper lantern that others left behind n we started laughing and singing.... then wen long the biggest idiot among us found 5 lighters and decided to throw it in without telling us.... then my bro realised what that idiot has done he pull me away just then our mini camp fire exploded there was fire everywhere! Leng the oldest and my bro began hitting the fire with their slippers (how smart) and several others came over to help my bro pulled me and began running i was thinking eh run so fast for what? Then pretended nothing happened when our parents returned to collect us. This has always been one of our best kept secrets.

Back then life is simple, native, happy and sweet. I would flutter around in my room all day not giving a damn about anything, draw my face with my mom's make up wearing her clothes parading ard while everyone laughed, back then i wish i could grow up be just like them but now i don't. when i cry daddy and mommy will come hug me tightly and assure me that everything would be alright. Although I wasn't exactly the prettiest kid at that time, my dad would proudly show off his little girl whom he name the 'moon cake princess'. Because my parents are always there for me i took them for granted, not realising that their love for me is the best thing that has ever happened to me in my short 22 yrs of life. Sometimes i would think that i am an adult and i don't need them nor their love anymore, defies them but when misfortune happens to me and when i turn around, my parents are always there for me and so is my brother. My bro thu my darkest times picked me up and put me back to right where i belong, my home and my parent's hearts. When i cry these are the only people who cries with me, my mother told me once, 'you always be my girl no matter what happens when you cry mommy cries too because mommy's heart hurts just as badly as urs...'

My bro when we were young would always talk to me and hang out we seldom fight and would gladly share everything and we always have got tons of soft toys as our playpals perhaps is one of the reasons why we are so shy.. our world consist of soft toy, cars, tansformers we would be happy all day and we don't really need other friends. But now my bro has grown up so have I, we have chosen different paths in life but I'll always miss my childhood days spent with him.... they are seriously best years of my life. Now my bro is not really my bro, rather he has taken on the role as my best friend. Cracking jokes about everything and anything he is the best bro anyone can have, i'm bless to have him as my bro... soon he will get married i know that lotsa things will continue to change but one thing that will never change is we will always be a family, best friends no matter what happens.....blood runs thicker than water so is our friendship...

just feeling homesick now ignore me

The porridge that penny cooked for me last night even she has got tons of work to do....special thanks to penny san!


yest ordeal, I am able to see who are my friends. There is this girlfriend of mine who often ask me for help, yet yest when something like that happened she disappeared without a trace pretending to be busy, telling me things like oh i'm so busy now talk to u later then disappeared.... not that i'm hungry for you concern or free food, but she didn't even bother to ask how am I.... to this girl you know who you are, i'm disguested with you.... to those who cared thanks and I love you guys! Penny, lynn, sherlyn, zhi ying, xian xian! :)

needle in my arm! yikes!!
did i mention that me and penny got really bored?
yes.... really bored

Yes me hospital...

Heeee today is such a dramatic day man. Filled with drama, laughter, cries, and yes pain... very painful indeed..

As most of you might know I often faint from menstrual cramps today no exceptional same thing happened... was suppose to meet penny but in the end I also have got no idea wat happened when i woke up, many security guard surround my room and flat looking so concern... but nobody beats my dear penny i can tell frm her soft eye she is worried that she will cry anytime one lor...first time the look in her eyes can? When i woke up, i wouldn't stop puking, crying, and feeling dizzy and in so much pain it is comparable to woman giving birth... The school nurse came and comforted me kept telling me don't cry everything will be fine... then there was this murdoch security lady who is so sweet, she told me she is a healer and put her hand on my leg and began concentrating but although it didn't work that well I just wanna thank her for her unselfishness n kindness. Also all the security guards who rushed to my room i think theres more than 6 of them.... Also sweet willie who offered to drive me there. Then the ambulance lady who comforted me during the journey there.....

Part 2
People here seems to like chatting alot.... i was in so much pain and yet people can talk abt their day in emergency room as though nothing happened. I was in sooo sooo soooo much pain can? Can u imagine people giving birth then the nurses and doctors talking cock at the same time? They are too damn slow, i was left in a room for abt 1 hr plus before a nurse came in and said oh we have found a doctor for u he just sign up... I was like huh? sign up? you think what sign up for tutorial isit! We have an emergency here! you waiting for someone to sign up? Then this indian male nurse came in he ask us oh u guys singaporean? We were like right... penny went to talk to him, turns out that he is also singaporean! he practically said over here skin colour matters they attend to those ang mohs then last chinese...so no choice have to bear with it we are on their land who can we blame? Then this doctor came in his name tom guy who is rather abit cute but 90% of ah beng material... is my doctor...he ask me silly questions like erm do u use tampon or pad? how many pay did u use today? I'm sorry to ask such perverted question but i have to....(SO paiseh can?) My face red like tomato and i answered him..... anyway everything was so slow and the sandwich we ate was completely COLD...gave me another round of stomache and penny got it too...while the angmohs outside got nice full set meal, including yogurt n rock melon.... talking about discrimination... the doc later came back a took two full bottles of blood frm me i was thinking wah leu so much blood for wat do witchcraft isit! Plus the way he pierce not professional at all pain u know its miss muffin's skin not some pig skin.... after that me n penny left alone for more than 4 hours nobody bothers nobody came to check on me... then we got really bored n took photos! Basically they just kept procratinating my tummy's problem.....

Part 3
The psychic or psycho? When we can finally go, we were sitting outside waiting to pay and get my referral letter then this guy about 60yrs old was singing and dancing as he walked then he saw us and being speaking japanese to us making fun of us thinking that we are both japanese. then he turn to penny and said asian girls are the best.... then he said penny will have 3 kids 2 boys 1 girl and later change his mind 2 girls 1 boy... he told us he is going to marry 2 indian girls then later move on to say i'll have 6 kids the prob is did i ever say i want kids? Later he said i hurt people and my world revolves around only me... OK OK i admit can! i have hurt cory, fredrick and someother people! and i blog because its me me me! haahahaaaa he kept kissing penny's hand then kiss my hand once the woman behind him signal to us that he is a complete nut case later this old man took out a photo of this family framed nicely in a wooden frame i just wondered who on the right mind carries such a big photo frame??? Don't know lah although he seems creepy to me but somehow I think he feels what i feels, emotions from him somehow feels so real not pretending at all...

Her life changed in a split second

Early on Sunday morning September 19, 1999, Jacqui - then 20 years old - and four friends were on their way home from a birthday party. Reggie Stephey, an 18-year-old high school student, was on his way home from drinking beer with some buddies. On a dark road on the outskirts of Austin, Texas, Reggie's SUV veered into the Oldsmobile carrying Jacqui and the others. Two passengers in the car were killed at the scene and two were rescued. Jacqui was one of those who were rescued but practically burned alive and dead raw red skin hangs from her body as she cries for help. She didn't die but spend many mths in hospital and had countless plastic surgery to try restore her original looks which is... impossible. Reggie's mom went on the Oprah show and when she saw Jacqui she cried, Jacqui gave her a hug and said 'its ok'

Heres the question if you were in Jacqui's position, would you smile and say its ok or would you hate these people for the rest of ur life and spend every single day cursing them? It takes alot of courage for someone in her position to forgive and she did. She is truly one amazing girl. I'm just thinking why can't we do the same? Often when someone lies (which is harmless white lies), they did it in a desperate attempt to save their own asses. It is undeniable that sometimes they lie way too much but in the situation of Jacqui she is able to forgive the person who shattered her dreams so why can't we forgive and forget graciously like her? I can't imagine having a scratch on my face let alone be disfigured for the rest of my life. I applaud this woman who has the amazing courage of stepping out of her house walking among the crowd living her life just like before. Things can never be the same for her ever again, but she has the courage to walk through it like that so why can't we? We often brawl like a baby over tinny winny things, yet theres someone out there whos life has been completely destroyed by some drunkerd bastard living eachday like a normal person.

Lessons like this teaches us not to give up easily as good things in life don't come easy, often we have to go through the bitterness of life in order to enjoy the few good one for some it takes a while for others it will take a long time before they can taste the sweetness of life. Human need courage something which lacks in most of us. It is not worth crying over broken relationships beacuse it won't come back so why not let go and be happy? It is not worth crying over lousy results so why not work harder next time? It is just not worth crying over spilled milk, the important thing in life is don't give up without even trying, if you think that someone is worth fighting for so what are you waiting for?.... don't give up. Thanks to my mother who pointed out this story to me, I often cry when little things don't go my way and thought my life is over when he left me.... (you won't understand... someone gave you a ring on christmas day, promised that he will love you for the rest of his life and in the end broke these promises, its like a broken beer bottle piercing through your heart and blood flowing like a broken water tank, having built your dreams with this person only to find out that in the end its all a lie), this is a lesson i've learned and will remember for the rest of my life, not to give up, and to let go if i have to, like what mom says there are always other alternatives you just have to look for it. Alternatives to tricky situations won't come looking for you, you will have to go look for them. :)

Simplicity is beautiful!-Deborah Robertson

Just crapping

Talking about being suay.....

Libra (September 23 to October 22) Maybe you were holding back because you didn’t want to disappoint someone. Maybe you felt hesitant because you thought the truth would hurt. Whatever the reason, now is the time to make a decision. Don’t delay. Move forward, and don’t look back.

Just when i got rid of one another comes..... I refuse to be suay in love! I don't want to! Anyone any suggestions? Wriston say my tao hua yun not bad but whats the use of having all these useless bums when i can have a gd one? The problem is gd ones have disappeared! Arghhhhhhhhh just so suay lately.... super suay. I'm hesitant cos i didn't want to made anyone upset so often, giving them the wrong idea...

Let me bang my head against the wall now.......

Liars liars pants on fire....

Its amazing how some guys can lie without even blinking their eyes. Its is true that i've lied a few time to cover my own ass but i can gurantee they are just harmless white lies. But this guy i've met is a amazing liar. A fucked up bastard to be exact.

y: hmmm when r u coming back? cos i miss u so much... can we go for movie or something?
me: huh? miss me? wat u trying to say here?
y: cos i'm in love with u... so long already can't u feel it?
me: since when?
y: since three years back when i first met u....

the prob is my close friend paige told me that she saw him hold hands wit this girl looking happy a FEW DAYS ago before this conversation... hearing his bullshit i wanted to teach him a lesson he will never forget for the rest of his freakin life...
moral of story: i may be nice but i will be a bitch if u try any bullshit wit me.

me: oh really? thats strange a certain friend of ours told me that u were holding hands with this girl at shaw house a FEW DAYS ago... so i gather frm the above information that u trying to be a casanova lah?
LONG DEAD SILENCE....
me: don't think i'm in perth i won't know anything i'm not dumb
y: i'm having problems wit her...
me: oh thats ur own problem.. when u r wit someone try not to say u like me cos that puts me off. my impression of u now is a freakin asshole.. i'm not a substitute n i never will be get that into ur thick skull.
y: if i break off wit her will u be wit me?
me: considering that i'll be an extra for u the ans is no. no now also no in the future..
y: i'm sorry i know i'm wit her but i'm always thinking of u..
me: ur romantic tactics won't work wit me.
y: ok i'm sorry
me: don't sorry me sorry her instead.

with that i blocked him. what i'm trying to say is casanova tactics won't work wit me once kena will remember for a lifetime i rather that he not be a casanova not romantic at all someone who loves me wit all his heart and not some asshole trying to be all sweet like honey and romantic but have got a few girls on his mind at the same time. What my bro say is true a guy may not be romantic but little gestures like whenever he passes by moss burger or any pastry shop he remembers that 'oh my gfs fav' and buys maybe just one donut which costs 60 cents for you, although its only 60 cents it shows that you are always on his mind. He will go hungry to give everything to you to feed ur hungry stomach not someone who finishes his food and waits for you to say 'i can't eat anymore' and eats ur share like theres no tomorrow. Simple things in life might not be what you wanted but often turns out to be the best because life is beautiful when it is simple. LV and diamonds might not be the best, a 60 cents donut will beat these things hands down anytime, anyday. When he loves only you it is wat matters most isn't it? even if the world ends, even if you will die tomorrow, you will still die with no regrets cos you know that you have truly been love by him......... :)